I am so tired of waiting. I need an answer for my soul faints and my heart is weeping. Lord do not leave me at such a hard time. I am scared and do not know what to do. I have become an idiot for you. I have said that "jehovah jireh-the provider" will provide me the job that i desire. I am so sore and heavy laden Lord and need your presence desperately. Will though not show mercy to your children when they are faint and weary. You are the Lord who has cried" it is finished" at the cross and thus gave a victory way. But then why is your child suffering. Should you not give daily bread to your children? Will you being a good father give us "stones" when we ask for "bread"? I need you to preform a miracle for me. Make a way in the wilderness and streams in the desert. Open the closed doors and shew me the place that is mine and mine alone. I am alone and lonely and have no one who can understand my dersires and tears stream to roll from my eyes everytime. I hope and hope and await for that precious and appointed time for the day of my breakthrough. I open my eyes everyday thinking that this is the day the Lord will do a new thing for me but sandly as the sun sets my heart sinks also. And now i am afraid to hope cause hope deffered will only cause my heart to faith and suffer. I need to hold on Lord. Give me the gace to honour you. Strengthen each day cause life is become sad and dull to me. I need a job in an MNC bank as a credit analyst. This is my hearts desire Lord! Hear O' Lord my cries!!!!!!